Sunday, June 11, 2006

Hurricane Season in a Different Light

How do I get myself into these messes?

I've said it once, and I'll say it again: WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS...and right now, it's a frickin' hurricane.

I meet M. on the plane. He lives in Chicago, but has been working in SMF. So I've traded around my trips the last several weeks to have SMF overnights. Great guy. Sensitive, romantic, smart, yada yada yada.

I've kinda been doing the online thing nonchalantly because, well, it's really hasn't panned out for me. But I've been conversing with about 3 guys.

C. is a fun guy, cute, funny, but I just don't feel the click. But I'm also thinking it's because I really haven't put in a fair amount of time. He came to hockey last Monday, we had dinner afterwards, and it kinda felt like I was having dinner with my brother. I felt nothing. And I also paid for dinner, which I've learned is what I do when I don't want to feel guilty about not liking them "that way". I kinda figured he felt the same way and didn't expect him to call. But he did. I'm not quite ready to write him off.

Then last night I had drinks with B. He's a bit (like 5!) years younger than me but carries himself extremely well. You wouldn't think he was the age he is. I had a much better time than I thought I would and I found myself wishing the evening would have lasted longer. Beautiful eyes, athletic, sensitive, funny, tall, good family.

Then today, I went 1st date furniture shopping with K. He is a HUGE athletic/triatholon addict. It's kinda imtimidating. He is very attractive and the lady at the furniture store assumed we were "together" and told us we made a good looking couple. That was kinda awkward. He comes across as a toned down alpha male. But he also thinks I have a harem of men at my disposal...which I really don't. A harem would be like 100...I'm just dealing with about 3, give or take some. It's kinda scary to admit, but he reminds me of my ex-BF in some ways...not necessarily the bad ways, because he's more mature.

I figured things would work themselves out and I'd like one more than the others, but it just keeps being that they are all good guys and I enjoy hanging out with them all. I don't want to give any one of them false pretenses, but seriously, how are you supposed to juggle? Or how are you supposed to make a decision so early in the game?

One thing I have learned in this whole dating thing is: NEVER assume you are the only one they are dating. And NEVER assume you are exclusive until you've had the DTR (thanks April!) talk. DTR=defining the relationship.

So for now, I think I will hide my online account because I can't deal with adding more to the mix.

It's also Lewis' birthday tomorrow, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

you better update this thing before you come home this weekend